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Thanks to this whole Internets thing, I now can put names to some things that have been plaguing me all my life.

Something I recently found out I have been experiencing is Alice in Wonderland syndrome. To be specific, micropsia. 

I actually found out about this when reading an article on Cracked.com, 5 Horrific Ways Your Brain Can Turn On You Without Warning. As soon as I got to that part of the article I immediately knew that’s what has been happening to me. It usually happened when I was in bed, and it doesn’t happen as much as it did when I was younger.

I guess if I had to explain it (if you didn’t read any of the articles), AIWS just gave me the sensation that everything around me was either shrinking or was smaller than they actually are. It made me feel very uneasy and forced me to just close my eyes and go to sleep. 

Something else I’ve finally been able to put a name to is jamais vu. It’s basically the opposite of deja vu. Instead of feeling like I’m experiencing something again, it’s when you’re experiencing or seeing something for the first time.

You may have experienced it if, let’s say you write the same word over and over again. After a while, the word almost seems foreign to you. Like it’s not even a real word. I’ve experienced that many times. But the worst, and what causes the most uneasiness, is when I’ll be talking with someone or just looking at someone or something and that person or thing becomes unrecognizable. I’ll know who or what it is, but it seems like it’s the first time seeing them. It’s especially unsettling when it happens when I’m talking to someone I’ve known forever. Just like that, they’re unrecognizable and I have to relearn their features and just try and try to remember them.

Re-reading this, I don’t think any of it makes sense. Hopefully at least one of you will be able to figure out what I’m talking about.

I was really hot so I took my socks off. 

Now I’m cold.

I think this is menopause.